I thought it was a bright story, but when I read it again, there were many sad stories.
Even I am surprised. I was thinking about many things in the past.
I don't have a story to say about this, but I'm currently fighting a certain symptom.


I was forced to show something that I was avoiding, and then it recurred.

To put it bluntly, it's a guy who can't stand external stimuli,
For the time being, I have no choice but to get used to having something in my field of vision, even if only for a few seconds.
My older sister was also not good at music, but I wonder if that kind of thing has something to do with it.







▼ 22/05/06 (05:13)

Part of the reason I became immersed in writing novels was because there weren't any sudden flashes of pictures, lights, or sounds compared to anime or manga, but even that was a stimulating situation. But for the time being, I slept.
The game won't start unless you press a button, so I can endure the stimulation at my own pace, so I often wear it for that reason.

"Yes, I didn't write that I didn't have to say anything, but around the round dice, I was in a terrible state of depression and had lost my tolerance to external stimuli."
It's impossible with trivial stimuli, and I wrote more sentences because of noises, things touching my skin, and incoming light. In flashbacks, the boundary between outside and inside disappears, so it's kind of annoying.
"Anyway, I was trying to avoid anime and broadcasting, but there were incidents where I was forced to show it, so I wonder if the boundary between outside and inside has disappeared."
Leaving aside who did what and why, I felt dazzled, dizzy, and dizzy.



"You're an otaku, aren't you?"
I'm sure it's a self-created otaku, but copyright? I don't really know. Rather, I was surprised that I was often told "I like this" when talking about works that I didn't know anything about.
Or rather, how many people are there who say they can't stand the stimulation and who are spinning around so often?
Or rather, it's kind of creepy that there are more and more things that look like works that I don't know so much. But I don't think I know most light novels.


"You may have guessed it, but maybe because of the accident in the past, I'm not good at keeping my emotions in check." Novels are just like that.
Even if I keep remembering, even if I keep blaming myself
Do you feel like you're trying to keep accepting things that you'll never forget?




I wonder if it's a panic that I can't control because I saw it before I pressed the button.
It's scary because it seems to attack from the image side. It doesn't stop right in front of my eyes, because I can't tell it apart from a dream.

"Even if I write this,
One of those incidents, when asked, "Is it that bad?"
Putting aside the good and bad, even now, I can't help but feel dizzy because of the unstoppable terror of the images that come flying in. Memories suddenly springing up, delusions spreading,
It's a bit like when a video jumps in suddenly, and I can only think, "Wow, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh". Rather than trying to fix it, it would be more appropriate to say that I won't overdo it anymore.






I feel calm when I look at stuffed animals that don't move.