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たくひあい

たくひあい

　対物性愛をテーマにした話や、キャラクター同士を仲良くさせて遠くから見守るような話が多いです。

・なるべく完結作品、またはある程度進んだ作品を載せます。

・オウム三女の松本麗華さんと間違われていましたが、別人です。

ひとり言
Even if I said something that I thought might be like this, it was always not heard. Because I was the youngest child, because I was a girl, I already had a weak voice at home and in the community, and that alone It was decided that she was a "stupid child" and there was silent pressure to do so. If he says even a little clever thing, the place will be white. It was such a trend, or rather, it was hard to breathe because of the air. It's boring. I don't know about the city, but there's still a bit of that atmosphere in the countryside, and I feel like I'm looked down on by the old men. It doesn't have to be a difficult story, but it doesn't matter who I am, whether I'm young or a girl, I'm silent. You can't be blamed even if you say difficult things without pressure. This was really important, and trying to take it away was one aspect of it. "It's better if it's a boy," or the fact that I tried to bring something that I was sharing, and furthermore, I said that women would be raped. hell. Furthermore, I received complaints that they thought I was a man because I was drawing difficult things, but that means that there is at least a group of people who are steeped in such prejudices. I still don't understand the point of being persuaded with a straight face that I might be raped and that men are better at difficult things, and I still don't understand the point of thinking that I'll agree with that. I don't think so. I'm not pregnant, but even men can be attacked. "It's a story that doesn't really come out, but there's this kind of darkness behind the story of a female student running away from that peculiar society, for example." There is also a tendency in some places to have the eldest son as the main pillar of the mystery, but there are also cases where the eldest son is left alone even if he walks around (why do you have it?) There is also the implication of what it means to be on the side of the eldest son as a whole, in a state where there is a "disparity" from the beginning. For example, even if they returned to the "region" with this, they would be no more than the eldest son (even if they were playing). Even seniors are old people, so they see them as powerless fools who will only be raped anyway, and in a sense they have no human rights. It sounds like a lie, but I've been treated that way in the last few years because I'm still doing it today. Their illness is so serious that they still make a big fuss as soon as the topic of "eldest son" comes up, or they repeatedly make condescending remarks (sweat). In the case of Natonato, I was scolded because I was told that my eldest son would never abuse me. If you search for "slander due to mistaken identity", there are really many. Why can you conclude the opponent for an obscure reason? The meaningless eldest son supremacy forced a big fuss about mistaken identity... I'm creating with the hope that I and others who are looking at me like that can be more positive and fun. June 27, 2022 18:38
2022/06/29
2022年6月29日
Recently, I've started Tamagotchi again, "Speaking of which, it's time to eat" or "Speaking of which, I have to take a bath." It's good because you can remember it. If I'm dazed, I'll be dazed all the time, so Then you will be healed. When I say natonato, Matsuri says let's eat, but sometimes it's because you're absent-minded. I don't know why, but you're basically dazed.
2022/06/29
ひとり言
There is a misunderstanding, but a certain writer originally had no relationship with me, An important component of the world view, that's fried chicken... Yeah... Well, I'm just a person who got on the topic, so I can't share it in the first place. I used to get hurt a lot. I don't think cooperating means putting up with being hurt in the same place. Writing a serious story in my own way ⇒ being made fun of and glorified, I've always thought it would be a repetition. It is made fun of and beautified (like rap) ⇒ It is circulated and evaluated, Also, write a serious story in your own way and become a spectacle for laughing people. "Therefore, a line was drawn between me and that person, but what is that line!" There was an incident that was said to be No, in the first place, it's because we don't agree with each other, so it's okay to say it now, or should I stop saying it? When. I'm half complaining, but half of it is written down instead of a joke book. I have a habit of wanting to keep the feelings I have, and I don't want to forget them even if it's painful. Isu-kon was also a serious story about falling in love with Isu-san, and there was also the aspect of putting her trust in Isu because she had fought against loneliness. Maybe I'm too serious Even if it's not a gag part, I think it's his own problem that he didn't like it. Even though I was told to write it, I can't help but think that he's laughing like that, so I couldn't accept it. (It's not a business contract, so it's a safe topic, isn't it???) ■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■ In the first place, I am writing this because direct dialogue is prohibited by a mysterious effect, Even if I tell the person himself, "Do you have evidence!?" Even so, it's abnormal to do collaborations that I want to do, and it feels like my name is only used there. I'm in the process of drawing the evidence, and I should at least guess what kind of feelings it would have if I used it forcibly. There are plenty of possibilities, so it is within the conceivable range. (I do it on purpose.) "So let's get along" is a contradiction. I don't want to. I am confused by the contradictions. Is it hard to understand? I feel like I'm just using the word "older brother" to deny anything that goes against it, perhaps because I'm taking too much care of the word "brother" so as not to look down on it. At the same time, serious troubles are made into jokes one by one. I'm turning into a hateful type of positive character... It's not like "I want to be a good person". I'm just making fun of you. Barley tea is delicious. I think it's too much in the summer. ■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■■ "I wish I could send out fun things." Too obsessed with drawing letters I was forced to do so, so there are times when I can't help but boil down if it's just letters, and I can't get rid of the feeling of being left behind in black and white, so I often add illustrations. I have to actively do something else. "There are voices saying that the method has changed, but it seems that it has changed (as it is). I will draw without rushing."
2022/06/29
唐揚げ
Uploading naked color photos is called fried chicken. Everyone loves fried chicken, but it has various meanings. Cano-chan's fried chicken story contains a true story. The dignity of a woman itself is also on the market as a product. Fried chicken, fried chicken! If you think deeply about the mother's line, it looks eerie. There are quite a few stories like this here and there in the text, including It may be fun to look for it because it is a common point or a world view. The extra episode of Otoyami Kulfi has been updated. It's hard to make a chapter division on the way💦 so it's okay to stay on the page.
2022/06/27
幻日のヨハネ
It was on the timeline, but is it about fallen angels?
2022/06/26
なとなと裏話
　今思えば、『男だって犯される』というのが描きたかったのかもしれない。主人公を男にした理由はその辺りの皮肉でもあります。（私が書き始めたのがBLが新たに商業で流行り始めていた時期でした。）話の中で夏々都君は、まつりと何度も関係を持って居るのですが受けです。 ※実は私生活でめぐみちゃんと重ねられたり、私の人格以上に、女は強姦されるからと否定されたりしていたので、何のために描いてるかわからなくなりそうでした。夏々都君はちょっと冒頭の皮肉も入ってるんですよ。いつか、私を私自身としてだけ、認めてくれる人に会えたら良いな。
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2022/06/25
恋
I also like the work, I started the site because I thought it would be nice if my work was my own. Because she likes the work, she can't like Kyoko, Sakurako, and others who are similar but different. I want you to stop. Yes, you're not the only one who really likes your work, I like my work the most. "I wonder if you are conscious of the work as an object of love." What is this feeling that sometimes happens in love stories, when someone who likes me is suddenly called out from the side? Opponent It's hard because I know what you like... It didn't matter if it was serious or not. I didn't want you to fall in love with me. "I didn't want to ask." I didn't want to fall in love with you. That person's thoughts are more painful than slander. It hurts every time I hear you like it. And you have to listen to it from above. Spicy. what is propaganda I like the work, but it's hard when it's a tool. I like it too about the work. that's why. I want to love my work the most. I've been coming here for a long time, and I'm the one who likes the work the most. I won't give up even if you suddenly come from the side and say you like me 😡
2022/06/22
文量
I myself think that it is advantageous to read a lot if it is tightly packed, However, there are times when the content comes in crisply when you go to the next one with about 1000 characters. Even if it's long, the point is that if it's interesting, it won't get boring. Oh, but it's better to have a lot of stories in the notebook. Hmmm... I tried a new cover and text color! "I think the atmosphere has been created." I used to like minestrone for school lunches, so I still want to eat it now...
2022/06/06
ビール
NATO記念ビール　じゃなくてもそういう瓶とか欲しいわ…… 普段お酒飲まないんですけど、飾るようのなんか無いかなぁ。。。なとなと本編ですが、あれでも気分なるために悪く書こうとは思っていません。本当にあったことの、本当にあった痛みを声だけになった断片でも形として、ダイレクトな感覚というか、そのまま伝わるように記録して、誰かに遺したいんです。まぁ、感じ方はそれぞれなんですけど、こういう痛みが存在する、という表現そのものを保管しているという感じです。　これもたぶん一部の人にしかわからないと思いますが、平和のためとか偽善的な意味ではありません。自分がどうしようもなく鬱になっていたときがあってそのとき、もう自分が何をしてて何を考えているかどこにいるかわからなくて、それで、ふと犯罪事件のウィキとかブログとか哲学版とか見てたんですよね。もうそうするしかなかったというような痛みがすごい伝わってきて、自分だったらどうするかとか客観的に自分の苦しみとか考えていると、一度冷静になろうと思いました。俺みたいになるなというような当事者（自称）のものもあって、どんなに病んで居ても、自我がなくなっても、どう振舞えるかという部分で考えるきっかけになったんですね。　当時腕とか切っても痛みを感じない手前くらいまで感覚がどうしようもなく麻痺していたんですけど、傷の舐めあいでは無くて麻痺していた感覚がショックでちょっと、こう、戻るというか。悲しみを感じられるかもしれないというレベルまで僅かに戻ってくる感じがあって、それで、痛みを遺しておくことが、どうしようもない鬱とかのときに、同じようにどうにもならないレベルで麻痺している人に悲しみが戻ってくるかもしれないと思いました。痛みを感じられるレベルまで回復して、やっと、自分が休むとか治療をうけるとか考えられるようになります。悲しみが存在すると言うこと、それ自体がなくなってしまうと、自分がどうにもならないくらい悲しい状況に陥ったときに、自分だけが悲しいんだと視野が狭くなってしまうし、受け止められるものが何もない。そしたら犯罪くらいしか浮かばなくなる。と、思っているので、遺しておきたくて書いています。私も何も知らない頃は、鬱っぽい話が好きな人は変わり者で他人の不幸を喜ぶだけの陰湿な奴と思っていました。でも、今は、どうしようもなく心が麻痺していて、せめて自分ではなく他人の悲しみを知ることでなら動くかもしれない心や、感じられるかもしれない悲しみもあるのかもしれない、それを必要とする面があるのかもしれないと思います。それは見下すとか傷をなめてマウントを取りたいとかではなくて、誰かの心と対等？になって考えてみたいとか、そういう意味です。どんなカウンセラーよりもそれは的確な部分があると思う。
2022/05/18
めも
While the people around me were speculating about love affairs and envy of the children who had left the school, Matsuri and Nanato are the ones who finally figured out the truth behind the unwavering surveillance. "School refusal comes up, but there are various things about truancy." I can't say the same thing about whether I can't go or not. It's also about people with abilities, but in that sense, I feel that things that only the person himself understands aren't said by those around him, but are the realm of only the person himself. ──And say that the abuse is a lie! Abuse is a lie! I thought when I saw them shouting and replying to each other that the phone was ringing and it was a bit cruel (laughs). "It's not a question of whether it's true or false, because there is some kind of problem when the person himself refuses." However, because of your personality, Matsuri and Nana go to school even if they don't have friends (laughs). It's better than being at home, and the people around you look different from your constitution from the beginning, so there's a part of you that doesn't change that much whether you have friends or not. I think there will also be. It's nice to have different perspectives.
2022/05/14